I have been gone from the States for six weeks so far and already got some bad news that my uncle is dying.
This is what bothers me about residing overseas, that I don’t get to be around family more often as they get older and pass on.
My dad went two years ago and I am sure there will be more coming soon, or leaving soon I should say. But I am here overseas to pursue my dreams in music, but my dreams are costing me my family. I have a lot of friends back home, including Heating and A/C tech coworkers and heating specialists from when I was laboring in the Heating and A/C field over there. It is kind of a mental tug of war I am going through because I absolutely want to be here to advance my musical career however I absolutely want to be there to see my family and friends more often; I could transfer back and become a local contractor again doing Heating and A/C repair calls, however I feel like I would be distraught knowing that I threw my dreams away, what would you do? It isn’t easy to keep going back and forth to visit often as it costs a lot of cash and is a big long flight back. The a/c in the plane is usually too cold and I end up getting sick for a week or two. I guess I have to live my life, but the afternoon momma passes away while I am here will be one of the darkest nights of my life.